The “C” Word and Me
Posted by Esther Fabian : July 21st, 2009
Well, I’ve got some big news – big to me, anyway.
Tomorrow I’m having a lumpectomy. I was diagnosed with breast cancer on June 29.
It was caught really early, the tumor is small, and I’m going to be just fine.
This blog isn’t about me, though, it’s about life at UT Medical Center and the people who are at the “pulse” of the care here.
So I chose to get my care here and wanted to share what my experience on the patient side has been so far.
Dr. Anita Leininger is my surgeon. I’ve worked with her professionally on projects focusing on women’s health. She’s not a pushover. She’s smart, confident and to the point. I like that style, plus her reputation in breast health is excellent.
What I found as a patient is that Dr. Leininger’s determination makes me feel that she’s got my best interest in mind and she’ll fight for me. I’ve also seen a compassion that’s not patronizing, but inspiring. I feel pumped and ready to fight this thing when I leave her office. And the rest of her staff members aren’t to be overlooked. They’re attentive, and appropriately upbeat.
One thing I quickly learned was that the beginning of this process, results in a lot of medical appointments – from initial imaging to biopsy to follow up, then, if cancer is diagnosed, on to the surgeon, the oncologist and the radiation oncologist. The nice thing was that the Comprehenisve Breast Center (Dr. Leininger’s UT home) handled most of the scheduling.
I was seen next by Dr. John Feldmeier to discuss radiation. I’ve known Dr. Feldmeier for years. He’s one of the most mild-mannered physicians I know. I remember introducing him to my husband at a fundraising event years ago and saying something like, “God forbid if I ever got cancer, this is the guy I’d want to have treat me.”
I’ve spent a lot of time in radiation oncology in my marketing role, learning about what they do. During the appointment, we talked mostly about potential side effects. I saw one of UTMC’s heroes, Ginger Warner, a radiation tech and breast cancer survivor herself. In a weird way, it feels like home there, which is a good thing, because I’ll be dropping by five days a week for a number of weeks for treatment. And the physicist, Dr. Ishmael Parsai, who handles the complicated mathematical stuff that makes sure the radiation goes exactly where it needs to, has put up with my stupid questions for years. Now I’ll benefit from his genius.
Finally I saw Dr. Iman Mohamed, who is my oncologist. Again, a woman I’ve known for years. She’s somewhat softspoken but oozes confidence. She told me that I have all of the qualities of a malignant tumor that a patient wants who is facing breast cancer. That sounds bizarre to people who haven’t had cancer, I know, but it was music to my ears. Hormone receptive. Small. HER2 negative. I’m going to be just fine, she says.
And I believe her.
For those of you who know me but didn’t know about the cancer diagnosis, please understand that it’s just plain weird to call somebody up and say, “Hey, just wanted you to know that I have breast cancer.”
I’m sharing a glimpse of my experience in the hopes it can help others – as patients, we just don’t need the anxiety of not knowing what comes next.
I’ll keep you posted, but I’ll be back to writing about the other great things going on at UTMC before you know it!
Tags: breast cancer, survivor
Esther Fabian is the director of health care marketing at The University of Toledo. Although she is a graduate of Bowling Green State University, Esther has willingly traded in brown and orange for the blue and gold. Over her nine years of employment at the institution, she continues to be fascinated by the incredible things that UT Medical Center professionals do every day to help people and loves learning about the many aspects of health care through those exceptional people. Esther hopes to use this journal to give folks a peek into the world of UT Medical Center, and maybe an occasional glimpse into the world of a working mom and owner of many, many pets.
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July 21st, 2009at 1:42 pm
You are way brave to blog about this, Esther, and share about your doctors and treatment. I’m praying your surgery goes well. You are so lucky that it was caught early and that you have such a great medical team behind you.
July 21st, 2009at 1:54 pm
As I sit here with tears in my eyes after reading this blog, I find myself so very lucky to work for such a great institution.
Better still, I work with great people and you are one of the best. You are one of the most upbeat, fun, and kindest co-workers that I have the honor of working with.
I am sure you will beat this with the superior health professionals we have here at the UTMC and with the love that we all have for you.
You go girl, all our prayers are with you always!
July 21st, 2009at 3:25 pm
Wow. I knew you were an awesome lady, but this seals it! I’m sure many people will benefit from hearing of your experience, both now and in the future. Take care of yourself, and I look forward to seeing you on the road to recovery next week
July 21st, 2009at 3:56 pm
“Courage is not the lack of fear. It is acting in spite of it.”
- Mark Twain
Thank you for your courageous post, Esther.
We will be thinking of you tomorrow and throughout.
July 21st, 2009at 4:49 pm
I am so glad you decided to share your experience. As we discussed earlier today, it helped my Mom so much when she was diagnosed with breast cancer when others she worked with, and had known for years, came up to her to share their stories. She didn’t feel alone when she found out that there were so many other beautiful, strong women that had gone through the same thing and came through stronger than ever (just as you will do)! It has been 21 years since her diagnosis and she is STILL going strong!
I also agree with you that I would want to be cared for right here at UTMC. Hey – we are VIP’s here!! Why not get the very best of care from the best doctor’s, nurses, and staff?
I will be thinking of you tomorrow and sending positive vibes your way!! You are amazing!
July 21st, 2009at 5:00 pm
Esther, Your comments will help so many people. You are in great hands. Thanks . Larry.
July 21st, 2009at 5:35 pm
As a husband, a brother, and a son of many different women in my life, I have three words to say – ‘YOU GO GIRL’. Your story inspires and motivates us on so many levels. WE are all behind you.
July 21st, 2009at 5:36 pm
You are strong.
Another great thing about UTMC is that “we are family.”
Please remember, we are here for you. Thinking of you. V
July 21st, 2009at 6:56 pm
From the UTMC Sports Medicine Team,
Your Oncology team is made up of All-Americans, their game plan preparation for your care will be well thought out and precisely delivered. You have entrusted your care to a championship team.
UTMC Sports Team wishes you a speedy recovery.
Best,
Burt
July 21st, 2009at 7:44 pm
This is a heck of a blog, Esther, and you’re a heck of a person. Sharing your experiences will benefit so many women, both physically and mentally. If you need us, we’re here for you.
*gives standing ovation*
July 21st, 2009at 8:08 pm
Esther – thank you for sharing this. I’ve always looked up to you – you are just so darn strong. We’re thinking of you. xoxo
July 21st, 2009at 8:56 pm
Your courage amazes me. There will be many people who will be helped by sharing your story. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
July 22nd, 2009at 7:48 am
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July 22nd, 2009at 8:02 am
Esther, you have the best attitude and energy! Praying your procedure goes well and your recovery goes better and faster than anyone thinks possible!!! See you around the “Farm”
July 22nd, 2009at 8:35 am
A truly amazing entry, E. I can’t wait for you to return.
July 22nd, 2009at 11:29 am
Esther you are awesome. We are privileged to have you share your experience with us. Your strength, courage and passion for life is truly inspiring. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
July 22nd, 2009at 12:31 pm
Esther, thanks for sharing your experience with us. I’m confident many people will be inspired by your strength and courage displayed while handling this “C” situation. You are indeed a person of character and determination with an upbeat and positive attitude which, along with your family and friends support, will result in a positive outcome. I’m keeping you and your family in my prayers and thoughts.
P.S. I still think you look like Miss A.
July 22nd, 2009at 12:44 pm
Esther! How fortunate you are to have discovered the lump early. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as you travel through this journey of healing. Keep up the positive attitude! Look forward to seeing you on the next UTMC Survivor commercial !
July 22nd, 2009at 12:45 pm
Ester, I don’t know you but it sounds like you’re a great person. Maybe one day we will meet in passing. I wish you all the luck & prayers in the world with your surgery & recovery. Having your procedure done here at UTMC is the best choice you could have made. We have a great group of doctors here at UTMC.
God Bless You
July 22nd, 2009at 12:46 pm
Esther, My thoughts are with you. You are absolutely in great hands in the OR–the staff there is outstanding. …..cindy
July 22nd, 2009at 12:52 pm
Esther…
Like Nikki R, my mom just went through this. I second her comment that sharing your story makes it easier for others who have to go through this. Too bad people have to get sick before they hear how much everyone likes and respects them, but I’ll add my two cents on that score as well: you make a difference around here! Get well quickly.
July 22nd, 2009at 12:55 pm
I must say, I normally don’t read the articles in the UT Update, but something told me to open and read yours. You are such a brave soul for sharing your story and your strength is inspiring. Bless you for your willingness to share, and I will send loving thoughts your way as you begin this journey that will no doubt be successful. You are beautiful from the inside out!
July 22nd, 2009at 1:19 pm
Your in my prayers!
Mary
July 22nd, 2009at 1:22 pm
Good Luck, our thoughts will be with you tomorrow and in the coming weeks. You have the best of physicians on your side, a whole university pulling for you and a great attitude.
July 22nd, 2009at 1:47 pm
Ester,
You have the right attitude. Good Luck and be strong in faith. I wish you the best…my sister too had the help of early detection. You will be a asset to others as you are not afraid to admit and help others in this cause. You are a winner!!!
July 22nd, 2009at 1:55 pm
Esther you are such an inspiration thank for sharing.
God Bless and keep you strong
July 22nd, 2009at 1:58 pm
This is a great blog, Esther. You are so brave and an absolutely amazing person. I look forward to seeing you soon!
July 22nd, 2009at 2:25 pm
God bless you, Ester. lj
July 22nd, 2009at 2:25 pm
Thank God is it small – and early. I wish you a speedy recovery Esther.
July 22nd, 2009at 2:27 pm
Esther you are a PHENOMENAL woman. To think just because I happened to have your cell phone number – I called you out of the blue two weeks ago frantic about what was plan B for the African American festival. In hindsight and what I now know – how trite of me to call you hysterical! Thanks for being so gracious and calming when you had bigger issues to deal with. May God continue to bless you!
July 22nd, 2009at 2:32 pm
Esther, you are truly an amazing person. Your willingness to share is not only courageous but it will help so many people. Your positive attitude is an inspiration for all of us. You’re in my prayers. See you soon!
July 22nd, 2009at 2:46 pm
Esther….on behalf of the entire UT Athletic Training Staff, our thoughts and prayers will be with you during your “journey”. There is no doubt in our minds the UTMC Staff will provide you with excellent, quality healthcare. I will look forward to working with you again soon on further “branding” the UT name. God Bless!!!!
July 22nd, 2009at 3:47 pm
Thank you for sharing your very personal experience with us; I admire your courage to be so open and help others. You ARE in the very best hands possible with our competent and compassionate physicians. I’m sending out positive thoughts and keeping you in my prayers. Warm wishes for a very speedy recovery.
July 22nd, 2009at 4:07 pm
As Joan Collins once said – when life gives you lemons, make lemonade – just don’t forget the vodka!
Seriously though, I am very priviledged to be working for such an AWESOME woman! You’ve handled every aspect of this with such grace, and your willingness to be open and share your experience with others only shows us all how truly remarkable you are!
July 22nd, 2009at 4:58 pm
Esther, as I begin my journey of the unknown…..I am totally in awe of your bravery! Thank you for showing the human side of cancer!!!! I will be praying for you as you go through your treatment and recovery. Maybe I will take care of you on my unit.
Please pray for me and as I said I will be praying for you.
July 22nd, 2009at 7:53 pm
What an inspiring post, Esther! I admire your positive attitude and am thrilled to hear that you are in great hands. Best wishes for a speedy recovery and a quick return to us. Many Blessings my friend!
July 22nd, 2009at 10:51 pm
Esther, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Looking forward to seeing your smile soon!
July 23rd, 2009at 7:08 am
Esther, Like you, I feel very fortunate to receive my health care from UTMC. Thanks for your courageous post. Please know that we are all thinking about you. Stay strong! Rosemary
July 23rd, 2009at 9:35 am
Wow. I just called into the office and was told that I had to check out the comments on my blog. Thanks to all of you for your well wishes.
Great news – my care was wonderful in “The George” and I’m up and around today, although a bit sore.
And to Regina W. — hang in there, stay positive, and feel free to email or call me for support. Talking to someone else who’s been through this is incredibly helpful. I had Larry Burns to talk to and I’m ready to do the same for others!
We truly work at a great place with wonderful people!
Esther
July 23rd, 2009at 11:11 am
Esther, I just heard that your surgery went well and that the “C” did not spread. This is awesome news and truly an answer to the many, many prayers that have been offered for you. You are an amazing lady, and I, along with so many others, admire you! Lydia is lucky to have you for her mom and role model.
You will remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Maria
July 23rd, 2009at 11:29 am
Dear Esther,
Dear Esther,
During the time we worked together I was always inspired by your enthusiasm and ability to get the job done no matter the pressure or circumstance. I know that great attitude will be one of your best allies during this challenge.
I am so happy that it was caught soon and I know you will be a strong survivor/advocate for raising awareness about the (unexpected) occurrence of this disease in young women. Please know you’re in my thoughts and prayers and get well soon!
July 23rd, 2009at 11:45 am
Dear Esther,
Thank you so much for your post. Clearly you struck a cord with what you wrote–I do not every remember seeing one of these blogs generate the volume of comments you have received. I cannot add anything to what so many have said so eloquently about you, your character, and your courage, except for the following: Fifty-one years ago, my Mother had some minor surgery done (I don’t even remember what it was for), but on the morning of her surgery, she happened to mentioned to her surgeon that she had a small lump in one of her breasts which was bothering her, and could he remove it while she was “under” for her other procedure. Apparently the surgeon did not like the looks of the lump when he removed it, so he had a quick “frozen section” done on it while she was still in the OR. It came back malignant, and she emerged from surgery without her right breast and a horrible, disfiguring scar that not only resulted from the breast removal, but also went up under her arm due to the dissection of lymph nodes. Fortunately, she recovered and lived into her 80’s. But I will never forget how the whole event was treated. She was a very open, forthright person, but whenever she attempted to talk about it, everyone became very silent and awkward. Some of her “friends” even shunned her for a time. Although it did not stop her from talking about it and how critical it was that it was discovered early, she was very bewildered, saddened, and hurt by the reactions she received. Although I realized to some extent what was going on, as a 12 year old boy in the 1950’s, I suspect I did not really have much of a clue as to the depth of her hurt. How wonderful it is that today someone like you can serve as an example to all women (and men too!) and be recognized for your courage and openness. You are standing on the shoulders of many courageous women like my mother who have gone before you who refused to suffer in silence. Were she still alive, I know she would be thrilled to read what you wrote. May God bless you. You will certainly be in my prayers.
July 23rd, 2009at 12:27 pm
Esther,
On behalf of the Dept. of Rehabilitation Services, we thank you for sharing your story and wish you well in your recovery. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
David Kujawa
Director, Rehabilitation Services
July 23rd, 2009at 1:14 pm
Good Luck. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Kim
July 23rd, 2009at 6:15 pm
Esther,
My prayers are with you! I can appreciate your sharing such a personal time in your life, and know that it will help keep you strong even at the moments when you don’t think you can. You have a tremendous amount of support around you with your UT family. I’m glad you’ve talked with Larry as he is quite the example to try and live up to. I’m so happy that you plan to share your experience. It will help so many. And from a medical standpoint – You have a great team. I know most of them, and they’re amazing aren’t they? I hope all continues to go well, and if you or anyone would like to talk, I am always willing to help in any way I can.
Jeni Gerber
July 24th, 2009at 12:16 am
There is so much power in PRAYER!!!!!!I am so happy that you have had a successful sugery! I see my oncologist next Friday, and hold on to the bravery and enthusiasm you have for taking your diagnosis head!! Your an inspiration and it came right on time for me.
Regina W.
July 24th, 2009at 10:09 am
Esther,
I’m very glad that your surgery went well and that you are now on your healing journey to complete recovery. You have everything it takes: a loving family, tremendous courage, a strong character, UTMC’s awesome team of health professionals, and the entire UT community at your side. Your willingness to share your story is an example of your grace and willingness to help others. You have deeply touched our hearts and made us realize that we all have so much for which to be grateful. Thank you, dear Esther.
July 24th, 2009at 3:10 pm
Esther,
God’s power is yours for the taking! Stay close to him through your journey. You are an inspiration to all.
Many blessing’s M
July 25th, 2009at 9:53 pm
Esther, I admire your strength~you are an inspiration to us all. I am so proud and fortunate to call you, friend. Love, Connie
July 26th, 2009at 7:51 pm
Esther,
I’m so glad to hear that you are doing well. You know that we will take good care of you here in Radiation! Your blog was great, you will be able to help so many people as Ginger does everyday in our department. And I have to agree with you that your Doc’s are great too! Praying for a speedy recovery…..
Michelle
July 27th, 2009at 10:51 am
Dear Esther,
How courageous of you to share your story. Your strength and courage will help others to undersatnd that life with cancer is worth fighting for. My prayers are with you in the days ahead.
Cindy
July 28th, 2009at 3:54 pm
Esther-
You are a corageous, beautiful woman. We are so proud of you & sharing the fight
that is “Cancer”. We love you & our prayers are with you, Mike & Lydia.
August 8th, 2009at 9:16 pm
Thanks for sharing Esther.Thank you for sharing your story. My thoughts are with you.
August 21st, 2009at 6:44 pm
Thank you for your courageous post, Esther.I appreciate this post.
January 24th, 2010at 11:38 am
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